The Day My Heart Started Beating Again

CONTINUED FROM: The Day My Heart Stopped Beating

AT THE PERFECT TIME, I MET MARCEL

The Day My Heart Started Beating AgainToday, I’m at a totally different place; my old life seems life a dream, like it was never me – and that is so weird. God is and always was in control AND I have a different ending…

I had been praying for many years for a godly man, one who would love Him as much as I did. I truly thought God would call my ex-husband to be that man… but things did not happen that way.

JANUARY 2016, 4 MONTHS BEFORE MY SEPARATION

I received a friend request on facebook from Marcel. Our paths had crossed some 40 years ago when we’d worked together for a bit. I knew of him but not him personally. He and his brother were known as the Niles brothers at work, both very tall men… and also very quiet. I don’t know that we’d had more than a few word together. That’s how much on my radar he was. PERIOD. We lived within 1 mile of each other for all those years but never crossed each other’s path. Marcel remembers me more than I do him, because he has the memory of an elephant. Ha! (-_-)

So when I received that friend request, I decided, Hey! He’s harmless, a nice guy… why not? I usually disregard men request unless I know them so accepted Marcel’s. Like I do with most new friends on FB, I thanked him for the friendship and that’s as far as it went.

When news of my separation hit our small town, everyone was shocked… including Marcel. Everybody knows each other here, and like many others, Marcel believed I was happily married. Rather than have people assume things, I shared the news myself on FB. For the first time, Marcel commented – as many others did to empathize with me. 

IN JUNE 2016, WE COMMUNICATED THROUGH MESSENGER 

I’d seen some of Marcel’s posts and it “looked” like he had God in his life. As we began talking about God, I had a lot of questions for him. I wanted to hear the whole story about how God got to him! Since it would take forever to text all of this, I asked if we could talk on the phone for the sake our fingers.

AND THAT’S SIMPLY HOW IT ALL BEGAN

There was an honesty and openness right from the get go, an easy, natural communication. There was NO agenda. He was not looking for anyone to be in his life and I was MOST CERTAINLY not looking either.

The Day My Heart Started Beating Again
The Day My Heart Started Beating Again
The Day My Heart Started Beating Again
The Day My Heart Started Beating Again

Our talk flowed so easily and naturally, just a heart to heart talk like with someone you’ve known for years. After that, we began texting & chatting for hours, practically every night. Soon, we were looking forward to those chats. We talked and talked and talked… and became good friends online. And that’s all I wanted at that time, a friend.

BEGINNING OF JULY WAS THE FIRST TIME WE MET PHYSICALLY 

This Sunday afternoon, I was getting ready to leave my home to go to my favorite spot at the wharf when I heard a ping on my laptop. It was Marcel asking what I was doing. It’s so peaceful near the water and I like to go read there, meditate or just simply bask in God’s creation. It was a spur of the moment thing: Marcel said he often went there and before I knew it, we’d agreed to meet in a bit.

Now… driving to the wharf I was thinking, “I’m going to meet a man.”

I’D NEVER DONE THAT IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!

“Okay Norma… it’s the afternoon, it’s in plain daylight. This is NOT a date! You’re simply meeting a friend,” I told myself. “

It just so happened that’s he was a boy + he was a friend… Ha ha ha…

IT WAS SO OUT OF CHARACTER FOR ME 

Remember, I’d been married for 43 years and with him for 45. I was not looking at men anywhere during all of that time.

I remember driving with a an attitude of, errr… “Excuse Me. I’m staying in my car and he’s staying in his. We’ll talk through the windows!” (-_-)

It’s just soooo hilarious now. That’s exactly what we did. We rolled down the windows and simply talked and talked. 

Then wonder of wonders, as I tried to leave my car would not start. My battery was down! Ha ha ha… oh no! Now, I was drawing attention to us being there together. Luckily, I had start-up wires in the hatch and that was quickly fixed.

SOMETIMES, WE SIT & LAUGH ABOUT IT – We ponder on the innocence of it, how everything was so orchestrated by the great designer of the world. Providence was there that day and things happened according to it’s decree. 

Things were moving in directions that surprised us both but I sincerely believe it was God’s plan for us. In this world, bad things happen to His children (see previous post) but God turns those around for the good. 

“YOU MEANT EVIL AGAINST ME

In Job, when God asks Satan what he’s been doing, he replies:

  • In Job 1:7, “I have been patrolling the earth, watching everything that’s going on.”
  • In 1 Peter 5:8 we read, “Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”
  • And John 10:10 says, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.”
We know all this about the enemy of our souls and his purpose on earth. So, why are we surprised when bad things happen? Yes, God is in control and knows all things, but He does not cause everything. There’s a second part to the verse John 10:10, the first part is yes, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.” But then it continues, “I [Jesus] have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
Our actions have consequences and impacts the Kingdom of God. But as a follower of Christ,
  • God is fighting for you
  • Jesus is praying for you
  • The Holy Spirit is inside you & walking with you.
“If you’re going to serve God it’s going to cost you. If you don’t serve God it’ll cost you even more.”
YOU’RE NOT ALONE. Even though Satan tries to stop you from accomplishing God’s will for your life, he cannot succeed because in Christ we have victory. Satan is always walking around looking for trouble, but He has no power apart from what God allows. God is in control, has the final word, and has the power and authority to overrule Satan’s opposition, in a heartbeat.
In everything Satan brings into our lives, BELIEVE that God can and will use it for the GOOD of His children.
For the rebellious, unrepentant heart, He removes his candlestick – letting them go to their own folly and destruction.

THAT’S THE WAY WE BEGAN

Oh, how we laughed. It was exactly what I needed and God knew this. We quickly moved from being friends to best friends.

Every night was spent talking for hours, singing, laughing… doing things. Playing games, being serious, having fun. Laughing, crying… Yup. No holds.

Hours just cuddling, watching teachings, etc… listening to the music we liked. And talking some more.

GOD WAS USING THOSE HOURS TO HEAL ME FROM MY PAST 

“Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”
Psalm 46:10?

Life had been hard for so long. I was content just being still, enjoying the simplicity of things. No agenda.

The more we talked, the more I liked what I saw. We shared things with each other we’d NEVER shared with any living soul before.

MARCEL & I COME FROM TWO DIFFERENT SPECTRUM

  • I was married 45 years.
  • He never married.
  • I had 3 children, 5 grandchildren.
  • He had none.
  • I had life experiences he never had.
  • He’d lived a single life I’d never done.
  • I’d been the good little wife & Mom.
  • He’d lived the worldly single life.
The Day My Heart Started Beating Again

“Engaging in positive sharing of emotions and thoughts helps improve health and prolong life. When we share feelings, knowledge and possessions with others, we create a relationship of trust that flows and helps us feel secure and happy.”

As I listened to Marcel’s heart, his story, experiences… all of it, who he was deep inside.. his love for God.

AND I FELL… DEEPLY. QUICKLY. NO RESERVATION.

He was a serious committed Christian now for several years: God had taken him out of the world and he loved God with a passion. I, on the other hand was a serious committed Christian for 27 years (at the time).

We have been married since May 5th, 2018 and we are now serving the Lord together. The story continues as we are being shaped, molded, transformed, sanctified, in Jesus. ♥ ℒℴvℯ ♥ I will be sharing more on the things the Lord has shown, and is showing us as we move forward.

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TO BE CONTINUED…

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Many Reference Proverbs 31 For Good ReasonIn Proverbs 31, we see an all-out illustration of the godly wife and mother. She’s this virtuous woman worth far more than rubies. Who can beat that? Her husband trusts in her completely, she does him good all the days of her life. She knits, sews their own clothing, makes tapestry, she is never idle and her hands are always moving. She rises early in the morning and goes to bed late at night. She clothes her children well and they are never cold. She works the fields with her hands growing crop, then brings her stuff to the market to sell, and feeds her household well. She is a strong honorable woman, very generous to the poor and needy. Her husband is a well-respected man where they live and when she opens her mouth, out pours wisdom. Her children look up to her and call her blessed. So does her husband. She is not caught up in outward beauty; her beauty comes from her fear of the Lord.WOW!!!! Quite a standard to live up to, right?Many other proverbs give insight into how a woman of God is to walk, what kind of womanly influence she is to have in her household.

Follow me as we take a look and glean a few takeaways! These are more pieces of advice that address our hearts, tongues, and priorities – some specifically aimed at wives and mothers.

WOMANHOOD SPEAKS LOUDLY

  • Compared to Wisdom, the Lady Folly is rowdy, loud, naive and ignorant. Proverbs 9:13
  • A wise woman builds her house, but a foolish one picks it to splinters with her own hands. Proverbs 14:1
  • The man who finds a wife finds something good, and the favor of the Eternal is indeed his. Proverbs 18:22
  • Much like a gold ring in the snout of a pig, so is a beautiful woman who lacks good judgmentProverbs 11:22
  • Houses and riches may be inherited from parents, but a sensible wife is a gift from the Eternal. Proverbs 19:14
  • You would be better off living in the middle of the desert than with an angry and argumentative wife. Proverbs 21:19
  • A dignified wife brings honor to her husband; a shameful wife is decay eating at his bones. Proverbs 12:4
  • It is better to dwell outside on the corner of your roof than to live inside your house with a badgering wife. Proverbs 21:9
  • The alluring words of a seductive woman are a deep hole; the Eternal is incensed toward those who fall in. Proverbs 22:14
  • Foolish children bring misery to their fathers, and a wife’s bickering is a like constant dripping from a leaky roof. Proverbs 19:13

YOUR WORDS, DO THEY STRESS OR REFRESH?

  • When we speak brashly, folly is upon us seeking attention for ourselves.
  • Words of grace, discernment, and purity are pleasing in the sight of God and man.
  • Be fueled in God’s Word of hope! Stay away from worldly lust, keep your heart pure. 
  • Do you exercise wisdom or folly? Godly ladies build up others, lifting spirits that flourish. 
  • A woman’s behavior reveals her relationship with the Lord, and the value of her character

GOD SHARES ENCOURAGEMENT FOR WIVES OUT THERE

  • We have potential to be a direct blessing from Him, worth far more than any riches.
  • An upright wife brings glory and honor to her husband, she is excellence in her ways.
  • Her prudence—or thoughtfulness over others is a lovely fruit of her faith in the Lord.

A WIFE CAN MAKE OR BREAK HER HOUSEHOLD

Scripture’s Language Is Strong – Due to discontent, a nagging wife is a sorrowful thing in her household. Wow! Once she loses sight of Christ, the dangers of becoming quarrelsome and generating unnecessary friction increase dramatically.  The godly wife is to seek loving God and her husband wholeheartedly, for this leads to peace and prosperity.


MOTHERHOOD

  • 12. My son, keep your father’s commandment, and forsake not your mother’s teaching. Proverbs 6:20
  • 13. A wise son makes a glad father, but a foolish son is a sorrow to his mother. Proverbs 10:1
  • 14. A wise son makes a glad father, but a foolish man despises his mother. Proverbs 15:20
  • 15. The rod and reproof give wisdom, but a child left to himself brings shame to his mother. Proverbs 29:15

Takeaways:

You may be thinking: these are about sons, not women! Yet the son reflects the mother, the one who teaches him.

These proverbs reinforce the powerful reality that our mothering has a long-term impact on the attitude of our children…and that we should be so deeply tied to the nurturing of our children that their disobedience or disrespect is heartbreaking.

The last proverb gives us a solution. It tells us moms that we have to be willing to love our children through discipline, correcting their wrongs with devoted discipleship, for it reaps godliness rather than shame.

While touching aspects of womanhood a little differently than Proverbs 31, these proverbs provide wisdom that remind us to speak sweet words, serve our husbands joyfully, and impact our children for good.